Spiritual awakening involves shifts in both energy and consciousness. If you think about this you can see that is the essence of our existence. We are a molecular structure moving and acting through the flow of energy, and aware because of consciousness. Our brains function like receiving stations and organizing systems where we receive and store information that determine our thoughts and behaviors. So the energy in our bodies makes adjustments to release old wiring and patterns whenever a major shift in consciousness takes place, and spiritual awakening is a major shift in the recognition of who and what we are.
And yet we all know there are also significant movements and perceptions that arise from the heart as well– love, compassion, tenderness, longing, expansiveness. When we are traumatized, neglected or abused we tend to block these emotions and the heart feels contracted or even armored against these life-affirming experiences. The heart also must awaken itself in a spiritual process, bringing up extreme vulnerability and anxiety.
Spiritual awakening can be challenging because the spirit or true nature longs to express all our potential, to feel free of the limitations created by separateness from life or from other people. All of our conditioned responses, reactivity and beliefs are being released from the energy field so that consciousness can operate free of them.
It is as if awareness has been filtered most of our life through our past experiences and future desires and anxieties, the concepts in our heads and the blocks in our heart. These are like lens that distort clear perception. The changes a person is subjected to happen so that these lens may be removed from the sense of “I” or “me” and experience can become more immediate, unfiltered, and open to what is. It is a struggle for the sense of a separate “me” who lives in a mind constructed for survival, protection, and identification with its roles and history. Holding on to a personal identity feels like a survival need.
The true nature is free of these concerns and instead feels presence, wonder and relationship with all things. For many people this is not a comfortable journey. An awakening of consciousness can bring beautiful vast insights and an awakening of energy can bring bliss. But for a person to feel free in the world they must release attachments to their cherished beliefs about who they are and what they need, and allow their body to do the rewiring that is needed. Awareness within us needs to find an internal thread that takes it back to source. One way this happens is through questioning any belief or feeling or thought that arises from conditioning and asking just who it is that is aware of these beliefs, feelings and thoughts. Who is this “I” that notices and believes all these assumptions. None of these beliefs were present on the day you were born. Who would “I” be if they all fell away? What is the essence within you that has never changed? This thought of “I” is the lynch pin that holds our story together and keeps us in separation.
Opening to this remembering is not the obliteration of knowledge, but the opening to a more broad context and universal wisdom about life. It is not the end of uniqueness: just as every snowflake is unique, so are human expressions. But it is the end of attachment to this uniqueness and the opening to the realization of Oneness.
My books “The Kundalini Guide”, related to the energies of transformation and “The Awakening Guide”, exploring the shifts in consciousnss, are available on amazon as guides for those who are taking this inner journey